Tag: struggle

A Poet's Life

June 1, 2017 – Another Month Come and Gone and I’m Still Here

May was an incredibly rough month for me. So many things occurred and a lot of emotions got stirred up. I will say that I realized how strong I really am. I had some incredibly dark moments and I really have to confess I had a couple of little breakdowns, but in the end, I…
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May 28, 2017 – Sanctuary In A Closet

As I peruse through my memory bank while working on my show, interesting things surface. I keep coming back to my 7-year-old self. That was a tumultuous time for me. It was the year the beatings began, the year my father put my mom and I up in a one room apartment as he prepared…
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May 19, 2017 – Allowing

It’s interesting to view life from my poet self. It’s a very different way of being than my everyday, here I am self. I’ve discovered over the years that my strongest writing comes about when I am in my deepest turmoil. Surprise there, huh? That seems to be a rather common thread for poets. Lately,…
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March 16, 2017 – It Was Inevitable I Would Have To Wear The Phoenix

My, how many times I embraced this mythical creature. I lost county of how many times I crawled out of the fire of a difficult life, angry, sad, broken. I spent so much time on my knees begging for a reprieve from the constant barrage of struggle. As is the case with all of my…
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March 10, 2017 – Refuge From The Fight

I’m in a rough spot right now. Having a hard time staying positive and focused on moving forward. I suppose this is all a part of the transition. Being born is painful I’m told. Not sure how anyone figured that out, however, I know pushing a life into this world is no picnic, so I’d…
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The words of my Mentor

The amazing foreword for Rejecting 18 Square Feet by my mentor, Ned Johnson. I am honored by his words. “R. MonaLeza dedicates her existence to the exploration of the human condition. Her empowering message that the spirit overcomes adversity follows in the tradition of the great writers of the past century: Angelou, Hemingway, Plath, and Thompson.…
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The dissection of skin from bone…

…and removing veiled interpretations of a dark journey will hopefully lead those in perpetual nightmares to know they are not alone, and there is peace of mind and personal salvation if you stop for just a moment and…breathe. That sensation of your breath entering and leaving your body is the most primal sense of being…
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